Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children is the much anticipated sequel to Square's top selling game Final Fantasy VII. The sequel however will not be in the form of a game [like Final Fantasy X-2], but instead as a CG movie.
The movie will run for somewhere between 70 and 80 minutes and will be released on DVD and UMD [for the Sony PSP]. It will feature a total of 20 characters, including the popular Cloud and Sephiroth, and is being developed by Square-Enix in conjunction with Visual Works.
It is expected to be released in Japan at the end of 2004, with a US release to follow shortly after [first quarter of 2005]. No word on a European or Australian release has been made as yet.
More information on specific areas of the film can be found in the following sub-sections.
The Announcement
The Tokyo Game Show Trailer [includes script translation]
The Jump Festival Trailer [includes script translation]
The FFX-2 International Trailer [includes script translation]
The E3 Trailer
The Project
Interview with Tetsuya Nomura [Dengeki PlayStation, 2003]
Interview with Tetsuya Nomura [GanGan, June 2004]

Related Links:
Square-Enix Official FFVII:AC website [Japanese]

Note: Watch the trailers and see how good this is

Trailers:

Full E3 Trailer [26.2 MB, avi]
This trailer was shown at the E3 expo in Los Angeles. It is the first English trailer of Advent Children, with an English narration.

Full Trailer, FFX-2 Int, DVD Quality, Sub-Titled [24 MB, avi]

TGS Alternate Trailer [11 MB, avi]
This appears to be a different trailer, it is shorter and doesn't contain the Sephiroth flashback or church scenes. Taken with a video camera on a side angle.





Text, Movies & Images : Courtesy of www.adventchildren.net

You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.

"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."

Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).
The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.
Her sign is the eclipsed moon.

As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming.


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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American Gods by Neil Gaiman

Reposting a post by Gen,


You have no idea what I can believe...

I can believe things that are true and I can believe things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they're true or not.

I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles and Elvis and Mister Ed.

Listen-- I believe that people are perfectable, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkledy lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women.

I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone's ass.

I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theatres from state to state.

I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative.

I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste.

I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in War of the Worlds.

I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman.

I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars.

I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there's a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself.

I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do.

I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive.

I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck.

I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too.

I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies.

I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.

I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.

...go read. -G

Bits N Pieces

Sigh... it's Friday and as usual, I've nowhere to go. Time is really crawling when it gets nearer to 6pm... what shall I do later? Maybe pop down to HMV to see if I can get any CDs of Chitose Hajime? oh well, life suxx

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Went to Cinenow yesterday evening to talk with one of the partners, think he's willing to offer me a job but the work he wants me to do for a start seem so BORING. As he explained to me, I'm required to come up with a checklist for setting up/ deployment of new dispenser machines and server. This part I think I should be able to manage but then he also wants me to do a proper documentation for the dispenser machines and servers (it was imported from Italy and didn't come with any documentations).. I thought I would be doing something more hands on, more technical stuff. Oh well, I've gotto start somewhere right? Maybe I'm just being fussy about all this.. maybe I just think too highly of myself. Anyways will have to go down again tomorrow afternoon for another round of talk. Geez, its just a job.. and all these talks never seem get me anywhere.. always the same questions asked, same things explained.. maybe they're just testing my patience.

I told 2 ppl at 10AM that I'm planning to resign and now it seems that everyone there knows about my plan.. heh can't wait to see my boss' reaction when he finds out about it from other ppl and not me.

So it's more or less settled, I'll tender my resignation the week after my birthday and then see if I can get this Cinenow job. If not, I've also made plans with my colleague (dunno if he's really going to tender also but from the way he sounds, think he's really tempted to leave as well) which is to quit together and join a competitor as freelance/full-time. So at least if the Cinenow job falls thru, I'll still have a backup. and not lying at home everyday doing nothing, totally no income at all.

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Went HMV at citylink just now, found the Chitose Hajime album.. but it cost a whooping $69!!! *bling bling* !! I'll have to find other alternative ways to get this.. :(

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Qn: How do you know when you don't like someone anymore?
Ans: When you can no longer look them in the eyes when you talk to them.

Happened to me just now, went dinner with a fren but realised that no matter what, I can never look her in the face when I talk to her.. not even during dinner. That's so bad.. guess I'll never go out with her again.

2046

THE ORIGINS OF THE MOVIE

What does the number "2046" mean?
In 1997, when Hong Kong returned to China, Hong Kong was told that
everything would remain unchanged for 50 years. 2046 would be the
last year of this promise. Director Wong was fascinated by the
promise and the number. He wondered what kind of love story it would be
if it were mixed with the number. He also asked himself what in this
world would remain unchanged. In our daily lives, when we fall in
love, we often ask ourselves, "Would he/she remain faithful?
Would I remain the same?"
The film 2046 begins with this number.

Directed by one of Hong Kong's most renowned filmmakers, Wong Kar Wai,
2046 is a co-production between the Shanghai Film Studio and Jet Tone
Films Ltd. According to director Wong, "The story for 2046 came to
me at the same time as we were working on IN THE MOOD FOR LOVE,
but while some of the characters have similarities, 2046 in not a
sequel." Continuing on he said,"In fact, the feelings and issues that
the characters in 2046 articulate and contend with are deeper and
more sincere requiring a different approach to portraying them. I
found that as I looked around and saw people I knew being in and out
of love, and others never being able to capture or recapture love,
something spoke to me."

"As I thought about what it meant to love and be loved, 2046 is what
came to me. 2046 is about a man who attempts to leave behind his past;
to bury that which he cannot forget yet the burden of what he has to
carry makes it almost impossible to move beyond what he has done and
seen. All of us in a conscious or unconscious way leave behind
memories in order to begin new lives. Some maybe do it only once;
others do it constantly. My film is about such a man whose love was
refused by a woman he loved. Subsequently he turned down the
love of another woman and lost a chance to begin again. He began
unconsciously and for various reasons to reject every new
opportunity to find love. It may sound trite but as we see in 2046,
love truly is a matter of timing."


SYNOPSIS

He was a writer. He thought he wrote about the future but
it really was the past. In his novel, a mysterious train
left for 2046 every once in a while. Everyone who went
there had the same intention... to recapture their lost
memories.
It was said that in 2046, nothing ever changed. Nobody knew
for sure if it was true, because nobody who went there had
ever come back - except for one.
He was there. He chose to leave. He wanted to change.


For more info, visit http://www.wkw2046.com/(Official site) or http://www.2046.jp/ (Jap site)


Overall, this show has got quite a good feel to it and I would recommend it to anyone who likes Wong Kar Wai's films. They've got a strong cast, good acting, nice costumes, nice music and good cinematography. A piece of advice, don't try to decipher everything in the show... just watch it normally, and try to enjoy the show. If you can't figure out everything, then wait for the DVD :) oh, did I forget to mention that it's a 2HR show...or slightly longer? Part of it might be a little draggy due to the story going back and forth and shots focusing on certain characters but I guess we could overlook these minor flaws :p


A comment which I find worth reading:
Date: 30 September 2004
Summary: strong start, but weak finish gets lost in 2046

In 1999, when Wong Kar Wai began shooting SUMMER IN BEIJING, word was already going around that he was at the same time starting work on a film with the working title 2046. Through the grapevine, it was rumored that 2046's plot revolved around Hong Kong 50 years after the 1997 handover. When China announced to the world she was going to reclaim the former British Colony (owing credit to the infamous Opium war and assorted atrocities in the 1800's), it also declared that Hong Kong was to remain sovereign for the first 50 years after the handover. This made for a world of opportunities for Wong Kar Wai to explore and create, for the 6.5 million population in the city were constantly being bombarded by discussions and debates of HK's future on television and assorted media.

2 years later, China becomes a much more viable market for film distribution to the outside world. Film industrialists around the world starts making sure subject matters won't be deemed subversive to China's film board... this continues today.

5 years down the road, SUMMER IN BEIJING never went anywhere, IN THE MOOD OF LOVE (2001) became Wong's trophy picture that shined above all his previous work... that is, until CROUCHING TIGER, HIDDEN DRAGON (2001) came along and upstaged Wong both at the Academy Awards, as well as that year's Hong Kong film awards.

What happened to 2046 then? What happened to the cast that supposedly had Bjork starring alongside Maggie Cheung, Tony Leung, Fei Wong, and Japanese pop idol (yet a well qualified actor) Takuya Kimura? What happened to the plot about Hong Kong 50 years after the Turnover back to China?

Pushing all the above aside, I step back into 2046 - the 2004 version, which I'd just watched last night. The film opens with Takuya Kimura's voice over detailing his visit to 2046, and being the only one who has ever decided to leave. He is the lone passenger on the train back to a time which he does not specify. We know there are androids on the train who are either servants to the lone passenger, or perhaps they are en route to their own time as well... we don't know, and it doesn't matter.

The 60 minutes that follow are, to my delight, just as good as any other of Wong's best work in drawing the audience into a world of mystique romantic melancholy. We find out Takuya Kimura the passenger is a fictitious character penned by Tony Leung's character Chow Mo-Wan - a reprise and continuation to the storyline so well built-up in IN THE MOOD FOR LOVE (2001). To make a long story short, his rendezvous with Maggie Cheung in IN THE MOOD FOR LOVE (2001) pushed him into a state of longing for something that "could have been" but never went further than a few intimate moments in the room 2046. Leung's character goes through a series of women in an attempt perhaps to free himself of the pain of having lost Maggie Cheung, which as I would deduce, was at best unrequited love, and if nothing else, the first of the series of affairs he would have after he finds out his wife has left with another man.

In the first act, Tony runs into LuLu (Carina Lau), they have another one of these platonic moments at her room discussing how she's been searching for her true love - a bird with no legs. I must say as a fan of Wong's DAYS OF BEING WILD (1990), I was delighted to see an attempt to actually link these scenes and characters back to a movie he made more than 14 years ago. He even uses the same music made so famous by DAYS OF BEING WILD (1990). Leung's voice-over explains how he first met Lulu back in Singapore. She was a dance-hall girl working there after failing to find her boyfriend - a Chinese man of Filipino descent.

If you've watched DAYS OF BEING WILD (1990), you'll know what I'm getting at. But I'll stop that point here... In any case, I loved this part.

Moving on, we find out Fei Wong is the hotel owner's daughter who's staying at 2046. Tony Leung returns to Hong Kong after another failed fling with gambler BLACK WIDOW (Gong Li)... which by the way is one of the weakest plot-points/links in the film. Leung goes back to the hotel hoping to live in the same room (2046), hoping to relive his memories with Maggie Cheung. The room is now inhabited by Fei Wong, and Leung moves into 2047. It is here at the hotel where he befriends Fei Wong and learns of her father's condemnation of her relationship with Japanese businessman Takuya Kimura. Kimura hopes Fei would leave with him back to Japan... I must say these scenes show us some of the Takuya Kimura finest moments on the silver screen. Members of the audience, and probably fans of Kimura, were actually ooohing and oowing all over the house. Contrary to previous reports of how his screen time is negligible, I must argue that it's not the "duration," but the quality of his scenes and performance that makes his part shine.

Btw, something must have happened between Cheung and Wong Kar Wai. They shot so much, but she's in 3 shots... I speculate some dispute must have taken place to cause this.

Back to the story... Leung meets Zhang Ziyi - another tenant at the hotel who also goes through men like Wong Kar Wai with film stock. They meet, and she ends up falling for him... but only to be rejected.

The rest of the story revels around Leung's flashbacks of Zhang, Gong Li, Fei Wong, and his continuation of the novel 2046, which upon collaboration with Fei Wong (also an aspiring writer in the movie), is later named 2047.

The first half of the movie is fantastic, and serves as a great example of cinema in its most romantic yet subtle form. Visually breath-taking shots, good dialogue, and great music... But what happens toward the last 1/3 of the movie becomes a contrived patchwork of montages, soundbite vignettes that leads us nowhere. I for one, never would argue that a film or story could not close with an open-ending. But this one is just NOT IT. As a fan of Wong's previous work (not including FALLEN ANGEL (1995), that is), and even the most loyal fanatic of IN THE MOOD FOR LOVE would think of the last 1/3 of the movie as convoluted and incomplete like a screening of Wong's daily rushes (if he practices this, that is).

At one point of the story, Leung sends his completed draft of 2047 - the novel, to Fei Wong. Fei Wong writes back with the comment, "the ending is too sad. Can you try to change it to a happier ending?"

We see Leung trying to start with the revision.

This is where I, if ever I had the chance of working with Wong Kar Wai, would suggest:

Keep the scene with Tony Leung trying to write, cut the Intertitles showing passage of time, use all the shots of the women and people Tony Leung have come across and created in the time and moments that affected him, keep the Zhang Ziyi scene at the end, cut the Gongli scene at the end, and close with the movie showing Leung start to write, but on a different sheet of paper, with a smile... He is writing a letter to Fei Wong.

a soundbite from Maggie Cheung's character wouldn't hurt in the above sequence.

Voice-over: "I guess some things just cannot be changed... even in fiction... because I no longer know what it is I have lost."

side-shot of Tony Leung putting the book manuscript back in the envelope. He is smiling as he writes... fade to black.

something like that... or anything but what's there now.

Eat Shit & Die you Biatch!! :D

Read the poor english and have a good laugh (Not as if mine is damn good, but I try my best to make mine sound as normal as possible, not broken :p)

Don't understand why such ppl can't seem to see the truth behind it all.. SHE is the ROOT of the problem. I sure didn't claim much last year. And I sure didn't want to argue with ignorant ppl. She's the one who's being mental and always creating unnecessary stress/problems for us. Oh well, I'm not going to waste anymore time with her. Shall tender my resignation at the end of this mth. Oh, just so you know.. I haven't been getting any increment nor AWS/bonuses since 2002. *pathetic* >_< And I start work late to justify my working hrs vs my pay :P hehe

Anyways I think that I'll be better off working as a freelancer or working in other company. Wish me all the best in my job search!


...Since we have such a list of pending uncomplete job, also customers may think otherwise our service getting worst. Therefore I would appreicate if you guys can be puntual for work (meaning starting work 10:30am or earlier if possible, not leaving house only at 10:30am or later)... and also please make morning appt start at 10:30 not later. In order for we to accept and be prepared for new orders taking in, let start early and be puntual, if we continue start later and finish at 6pm or.... later, how much work can we finish.

Our business and income come from services, when people come to us, they need the computer urgently and need our service immediately, if we can't do it (due to we have pending jobs to be done). There are so many ppl like us in the market and are willing to take the service, so why wait for us for 1 or 2 or later date. Please also note that not everybody will keep waiting for us patiently (there are also people like us out there with much better service). Market are bad, everybody are fightly and rush for the same piece of cake, if you are fast and good the cake is yours. Please help us to help you keep your employment, since last year the income come in only pays both of you salary and CPF excluding your claims. There is no reasons, why should I keep the company just only to keep job for both of you. Why should I work so hard and I have to grumble so much, pushing you guys so much and dislike by me being so "meow". I think since the last 1 or 2 years, I now have enough of all these nagging and pushing and aruging (neither me like to do that to cause high blood pressure and stress for myself) and it since only myself and Daniel fighting, seriously I can't fight or win a war without supporting and appreciated troops.

Therefore your understanding is greatly appreciated and thank you for your co-operation.

No Subject

This is damn crappy... it's already 1 week past October and my big day is coming up in another 16 days. Haven't even thought of what I'm going to do, who to call, and where to go. Argh.. my initial plan is to have a drinking session on Friday(22nd) and Dinner on Sunday(24th) mainly because mushroom won't be back till Saturday nite from HKG.

On a lighter note, I found my old webbie!!!! It was done in 1997 (I think..?) and later shifted to geocities in 2001 but I totally forgot about it until yesterday when I was fumbling thru yahoo for online storage space and found that it still exists and is still online.. hahaha.. happy yah? Damn simple n darn ugly... still remembered learning about HTML online and typing out the codes, line by line in notepad. Don't laff when you see it ok? Not everyone can churn out good work on their first attempt and considering the standards at that time (basic html n frames), I think it's good enough for any beginner oredi :D

http://www.geocities.com/setzer24/photos.html

Looking at those photos really brings back the memories.. some crossed paths with me and disappeared soon after. Some are still around but seldom see each other while some gave me heartaches. Overall, they're memories which I'll treasure ;)

Mushroom sounds sad tonight.. she's got lotsa things on her mind and is feeling shitty and doesn't know how to solve them. I wanna be of help but she's reluctant to tell me her problems.. how? Guess I'll just have to slowly lead her to tell me everything. K, that's enough for tonite.. will update again soon

Peace

What's your Colour?

You are purple. What a romantic person you are.
You're sentimental and forward-looking (those
are opposites.). You're a sophisticated and
refined--with a refind taste for chocolates and
wine (yum...). Tempermental and moody, you let
people know when you're angry. But other
times, you just sit and sulk. Alone. When
around people, you're a generous person, with
insatiable needs. You're a starving artist,
basically. You're enjoy getting into debates
over politics and religion with people of the
same intelligence of you. But you know they
can never convince you otherwise, you stubborn
person, you. As a unique person you are (not
to mention just a tad bit eccentric...), you're
well-liked by either a few people, or too many
people...


What color are you? (Amazingly detailed & accurate--with pics!)
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Yoshitomo Nara

Aren't they nice? I really feel like getting them but one's out of stock and both are just so damn ex!! *note: in USD$*




Yoshitomo Nara Dish 10" Ashtray $28.00

About
The image is from a painting entitled Too Young To Die, 2001, acrylic on
cotton, mounted on fiber reinforced plastic. Porcelain dish that
is aptly named. Diameter is approximately 10 inches!!
Unless you are Fred Flinstone, this "ashtray" is bigger
than your head! Really impressive. Even we wondered at an
ashtray priced so high, but when we saw it our jaws dropped! Must
see and must have! And at that size, YES, it's a dish!





Yoshitomo Nara Clock $189.00

This unique Yoshitomo Nara Clock has 84 unique drawings by the artist,
one for each hour and one for every minute! Each passing minute
"flips" over to reveal a new drawing! Watch as the minutes
pass by and each image is revealed. This is the BEST way to keep
time and is one of our most favorite items that we carry!

.....7 o'clock....come on 7:01!!!

Content:

Clock comes new in box, ornamented with Nara's drawings.
Battery is included! Comes in BEIGE, BLUE, and NEW WHITE!

The Art of T-Shirt Folding

This is even better than those folding devices which boasts of folding your clothes in under 5 seconds. But I guess the secret technique below is only applicable to T-shirts -_-;

1. 
   Start by laying the Tshirt flat and sideways in front of you, neck opening to your right. Find the centerpoint on the far side and pinch it with your left hand, about two inches in from the far edge.
   

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2. 
   With your right hand, draw a line from your left hand to the right edge of the tshirt, parallel to the edge of the shirt. This brings your right hand to the neck-opening side of the shirt. Grasp the edge with your right hand.
   
   

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3. 
   Now while maintaining your grip, cross your right hand over your left, towards the opposite (waist-opening) end of the tshirt. Maintain the same imaginary line you've been working on (about two inches from the far edge of the thsirt, parallel to the edge) and add the new edge to the grasp of your right hand.
   
   

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4. 
   This is where the magic happens. Simply uncross your hands and extend them in front of you, lifting the shirt perpendicular to the floor.
   
   

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5. 
   Complete the fold by letting the loose arm hole drop to the floor and folding the shirt in half over it!
   
   

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6. 
   Breathe deeply and contemplate the terrible beauty you have wrought.
   
   
   
   
   

   If the written instructions seem too complicated, you can also watch a video here.

   
   
   

Arghhhh!!!!

Fuck FUck FuCk FucK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night, my computer went blank for no apparent reason.. I mean the monitor's working fine (I've tested it) but nothing shows up on screen.

I guess there's only 2 possiblities now:

1) My graphic card is spoilt

OR

2) My mainboard is screwed

I really hope it's the first one, cos my previous experience with exchanging/replacing mainboard took more than 2 months! Can you believe it? And it was supposed to be fast already considering the amount of emails and phonecalls I've been shooting at the "friendly" people at corbell.. they're goddamn "helpful" I would say.. -_-;

So anyways, I managed to fix up a spare comp for temporary usage but I feel that it's sooooooooo slow (Pentium III 866Mhz) compared to the current one (Pentium 4 2.66Ghz) *Sigh* shall not complain too much now, will have to go office tomorrow and take back my spare graphic card to test it... really hope it'll work *cross fingers*!!

This morning was din's ROM day. Woke up late (due to fixing up of my spare comp) and was nearly late becos the blur taxi driver missed the turn before Funan. But luckily I managed to arrive on time.. 1153hrs to be exact (their appointment was at 1155hrs). After that, went inside.. watch them exchange their vows, put on their rings, pronounced Mr & Mrs Cheng and then took a few photos and went down to Regent Hotel to have buffet. Then we ate for almost 3hrs before deciding to go to Centrepoint to look at curtains. After which, more walking.. window shopping.. Tangs Studio was having some sale and Mango got new clothes.. in the end, sat down at coffeebean for a drink with jackson, his sister, din and amy.

Lastly it was down to Dempsy Road to look at furnitures and jackson's sis wanted to eat durian (she thinks of me as her durian buddy ?!? Cos when she asked me whether I eat durian or not and I said yes, and she went like,"oh great! finally found someone to eat durian with me!!" (double DUH) not that I've a craving for durians anyway.. but I shall not be rude. In the end, turns out that the stall at Dempsy Rd wasn't open *phew* and so we went home. Hah.. I guess I really summarized todae's events quite well... shall go for dinner now, can't stand this spare comp.. blardy slowwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!

I'll Be Back...

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4 Things He Doesn't Dare Tell You

No matter how many conversations and Q&A sessions you've shared, every guy has certain details about his life that he considers off-limits -- even to you. Learning about them now can actually help you understand him better and keep you from freaking out if you accidentally trip on them one day. So at the risk of being hunted down, killed, and dried for jerky by my fellow males, I reveal the hidden truths your man doesn't want you to know.



1. He has a stash of porn.
I know what you're thinking: "Not my man." But it's a cold hard fact: Even the nicest guys like nasty entertainment. "Porn lets me explore sexual avenues that are unavailable to me in real life," says Adam, a bona fide nice guy from Washington, D.C.

Not convinced? Do the math. Triple-X films are a multibillion-dollar-a-year industry. That's about one video for every grown-up man and woman in America. But when was the last time you plunked down a piece of your paycheck for Jurassic Pork or Snatch Adams? My point exactly -- your significant other is buying enough for the both of you.



2. He wants more oral sex.
Okay. You know he loves it, but you might not have any idea just how much. Men are simple creatures with three basic needs: food, shelter, and blow jobs. But he won't ask for more for fear of seeming self-centered. "I'm afraid that making that request would probably be the end not only of oral sex but of all sex," says Eric from New York City. So treat oral sex like a vitamin, and give it to him once a day. He's sure to repay the favor.



3. He hates it when you're more successful than he is.
Even if he said he was proud of you when you landed that paycheck-fattening raise or corner-office promotion, he's pissed that you're moving on up faster than the Jeffersons.

See, guys are supposed to be the breadwinners, but now women are often earning just as much money and respect as men are, if not more. And this growing gender equality is doing a Lorena Bobbitt on his psyche.

But he'll never confide this to you. Any guy who revealed his not-so-progressive feelings would risk coming off like a Neanderthal. Until we get over this (yes, sexist) attitude, try not to flaunt the fact that you're in a higher tax bracket.



4. He's more loyal to you than he is to his buddies.
Never mind what you've heard. The only thing guys talk about in the locker room is sports. In general, men are far more zip-lipped about intimate sexual details than you think we are -- especially if we care about you. "It's better to smile and let them imagine what must have happened," says Steve from Boston.

We're less interested in bragging about our bedroom exploits in the spirit of male bonding than we are about deepening our bond with you. But don't expect your man to divulge this secret. Men are taught to stick together. By choosing you, we've betrayed our own kind. And that's just something we'd rather not admit -- to anyone.

Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman

To really love a woman
To understand her
You gotto know her deep inside
Hear every thought
See every dream
N' give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
Cos she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really, really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold ya
Till you know how she needs to be touched
You gotto breathe her
Really taste her
Till you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
Cos she needs somebody to tell her that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really, really really ever loved a woman?

You got to give her some faith
Hold her tight
A little tenderness
You gotto treat her right
She will be there for you
Taking good care of you
You really got to love your woman

And when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
You tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
You tell her that she's the one
Cos she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really, really really ever loved a woman?
Just tell me have you ever really, really really ever loved a woman..


One of my favourite tracks from Bryan Adams.. passé? Nah I don't think so, great tunes grow better through time.. just like good wines :) I didn't really watch Don Juan DeMarco, only caught parts of it. But I like the way the story goes, with Johnny Depp as Don Juan (John DeMarco)... some people say that the ending is abit ambiguous cos it wasn't clear whether was he, or was he not Don Juan. IMO he's just delusional but I really guess it's not important afterall.. life is what you make of it. Either you can be cynical or you can embrace the beauty of the world. That's what Don Juan is, he's a physical representation of Passion in it's purest form (minus the claim that he had 1500 lovers -_-; ) So whether you choose "reality" over "fantasy" or vice versa, it simply depicts what your state of mind is now. Darn.. makes me feel like getting the dvd :)

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the
tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they
are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the
rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy .... So
the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in
reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man
to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to
the top of the tree. Share with other women who are good apples, even
those who have already been picked!

And ...

Men are like a fine wine. They start out as grapes, and it's up to
women to stomp the crap out of them until they turn into something
acceptable to have dinner with.

Currently listening to ...

小时侯

小时候常常望着窗外的天空
幻想长大以后
能实现从前作过的美梦
长大后发现世界真的不同
不知该要往哪走
还是停在原地一动也不动
我无力再逃脱
眼看着时间溜走
想回到小时候
I wanna stay
Or stay away
I wanna stay
Oh 最真最美丽的童年
我stay
I wanna stay
Or stay away

（闽南语）
听你讲你讲
为什么大汉之后
世界拢变的不同 （全变的不同）
是不是听到小时候的那条歌
我的目屎 就会直直流不离 擦不离

继续唱 唱到阮完全拢无声
才了解阮要对叼飞 叼位走
是不是大汉之后 大汉之后 大汉之后
阮才知道 咱的辛苦 才有价值

Open Relationships - The Pros n Cons

Having an O.R might not be as easy as you might have heard. The advantages are obvious.. you are both free to sleep with anyone you find attractive and do it without guilt or fear of being found out. You enjoy each other's company, you have alot in common, and you love each other. It's like having your cake and eating it too, in every flavour you crave. An O.R really can be ideal.. if you can manage it.

But life is rarely ideal, an O.R may require more work than a normal one. The biggest obstacle most people faced would be "Jealousy". Jealousy stems from insecurity, fearing that we are unworthy or not as worthy(attractive, itelligent, successful) as someone else. We all want to be liked, even if we claim otherwise. We want to be respected for not giving a damn, for being ourselves. And no matter how confident we may be, we all deal with insecurity to a certain extent. Some people are so consumed with feelings of inadequacy that jealousy is the dominant force in their lives. Their relationships are battlefields, constant competitions in which everyone loses because those inflicted with feelings of inferiority are too insecure to be satisfied with equality. They strive to feel superior which requires dominance and control.

Even those with a rather positive self-image are susceptible to jealousy. No matter how attractive, intelligent or successful we are, there will always be someone whom we think has us beaten in one or more departments. Can your relationship survive if you feel that your partner might prefer someone else to you?

These and other questions will have to be asked and thoroughly answered before a successful O.R is possible.. like questions of commitment, love and emotional bond in your relationship.

Overall, relationships take alot of work. Sometimes an O.R is nothing more than a way to avoid the responsibilities that are a natural part of sharing your life with another person. An O.R, though promising freedom, can also offer escape. And there is a difference.. if you see an O.R as a quick-fix to a problem neither of you are willing to discuss or believe that it's beyond repair, then it's purely an escape.. it'll never result in genuine freedom. But if freedom is what you seek from an O.R, and you and your partner are willing to give it a try, know what you both hope to accomplish. Look both ways before crossing the road or you'll never make it to the other side.

Just remember the golden rule if you want to opt for an O.R - "When it's time to let go, let it go." Don't cling on to your partner like a parasite, hoping that it's possible for a 2nd chance, when your partner wants to end the whole O.R. That's not how the game is supposed to be played.


Kudos to Brian from Date.com for providing the interesting article on The Pros and Cons of an Open Relationship , thus making this possible :)

Love Will Keep Us Alive

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide

Lost and lonely
Now you've given me the will to survive
When we're hungry.. love will keep us alive

Don't you worry
Sometimes you've just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes

Now I've found you
There's no more emptiness inside
When we're hungry.. love will keep us alive

I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there's nothing I wouldn't do

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you've given the will to survive
When we're hungry.. love will keep us alive
When we're hungry.. love will keep us alive
When we're hungry.. love will keep us alive

*Lovely song isn't it? never fail to bring tears to my eyes*

Boring Saturday afternoon

I wanna fall asleep but I can't
I wanna catch a show but I can't
What fun is it when you watch a show alone
What good is it when you go out alone

Put down all your baggages
Put down all your heart
Just go out and spend your day
Alone in the park

Having this said
It looks like it's going to rain
I'll try and go to bed
Then do this over again


*gosh... damn cheesy if I say so myself :p*

The Origin..

Name:Setzer

OK, here's some more speculation. "Setzer" by itself means "typesetter" (hardly a meaningful name). But the German expression used when betting on numbers or horses is "setzen"! For example, "10 Mark auf Nummer 23 setzen" means "bet 10 Marks on number 23". So "Setzer" could imply "the one who puts down the money -> "gambler"; though I've never heard the word "Setzer" used to mean "gambler". Anyway, it's still nice-sounding even if it's a coincidence. It's my single favorite character name in the entire FF series.


Quoted from http://www.ffcompendium.com/h/nchara.shtml

My Best Friend's Wedding - Part 1

This is the first time that I'm involved in a wedding other than eating n drinking. I'm in charged of coming up with ideas for games n stuff when the groom comes over.. hah thank god I'm not one of the "brothers".. must think of something to tekan them.. if not the groom :p *rubbing hands in glee*

Went to one of the bridal shop along Tras Street yesterday evening to accompany Din, and her sisters to check it out.. the gowns were so-so n so were the service.. and the prices they charged were quite high too. But she look so nice in a wedding dress.. I guess everyone would look nice anyways. Later jack came along to "provide" his opinions.. the poor man even tried to bribe me, saying that he'll give big ang pows for the "sisters" and to let him off easily ... *fat hope* I'll take a big angpow but will still torture u. Ha Ha.. who ask u to marry my best friend!

After which, couldn't really decide to take up the package from Ted Wu or not, so off we went for dinner at Great World, n later across the road to Karen's place for further discussions. But at the end of the day, nothing was decided.. backdrops for the wedding, theme of the wedding, wedding favours, dinner venue (deciding between good wood or intercon), guest list, invitation cards..etc haha damn jialat. But will meet again this evening to brainstorm on the different torture methods we can come up with... Must have at least 2 plans just in case.. hehe.. so exciting!!

-continuation-

Urrghhhhhhh... dat day ask u whether when will you be free to meet n u said today, now ask u wat time you wanna meet u tell me say u dun think so.. cos very tired n going KL tomorrow for ur holiday.. how lame can it get? I really wonder... do you even care about your friend's wedding? Fuck it.. I can do this on my own. Out of courtesy I want ur opinions, since u dun bother, I'm not going to be bothered with you too. _|_

Horoscope

Capricorn
December 22-January 19

There is a rumor that Capricorns are the best lovers of the zodiac when they feel stable and secure and can see the long term purpose of the union they are in. The focused determination of Saturn as a guiding light brings the same unequaled force into the bedroom and into the relationship as they apply to building their life and their security. Capricorn is slow to trust and even slower to love but once their heart is given there is very little they won't do
to back up and support and love their mate.

The symbolism of Capricorn is the Seagoat...a useful metaphor is the ability to penetrate both environments on earth water and land. Spiritually...they can conquer both the spirit and the body. Love is nothing less than a goal and they are capable of approaching it with the same dedication as they approach any other important endeavor in their life.

They are loyal, nurturing caregivers and supporters at their best. Cold, calculating and emotionally repressed at their worst. The realm of feelings is the hardest plane for Capricorns to come to terms with as it is based on an energy that they cannot control . Once they accept and embrace their emotional beings they are human dynamos who add strength, conviction and longevity to love.

Capricorn Sexuality
When they are secure within themselves and within a partnership they can take their lover to the peaks of sexual mountaintops.

They know how to apply patience and dedication to discovering how to please and their leisurely approach to getting to know a mates intimate secrets promises that they possess an almost push button control of their partners sexual desires.

It is not the pure and raw driving sexuality of Scorpio...nor the romantic and enchanting passion of Libra...it is a combination of the human physical need for sex and the spirits need to experience the height of a pleasure and to merge it into one. A soul moving encounter that brings the primal...into the spiritual.

The Long Term Story
Capricorns require patience and dedication. They are often shy and awkward in their emotions early on growing in strength and acceptance the longer they stay within a union.

They need to have a purpose behind their actions and a purpose behind the relationship. They take the initial investment of heart to the building of a long term commitment with the same serious intent that they conquer all their mountains in life.

They can be domineering and cold if they are not in touch with their feeling centers. Materialistic and self serving as well. Once committed most Capricorns stay committed as they are bound to a sense of responsibility. It takes a lot to sever a serious Capricorn tie but once it is severed...they can be vengeful and hateful.

They are not always the best judge of character and so let downs and relationship break ups become personal mistakes that they often repress and refuse to accept. They provide one of the most secure and empowering bonds when they are completely in love.

Positive Traits in Love
Loyal, dedicated, patient, kind, generous, supportive, serious, dependable, tolerant, attentive.

Negative Traits
Possessiveness, control, coldness and aloofness, lack of emotional tolerance or depth, materialistic, narrow minded, vindictive, bitter, melancholy.

What a Capricorn Likes
Loyalty, Feeling secure, Financial/material stability, Ambitious mates, Feeling committed, Making long term relationship plans Dependability, Reliability, Perseverance

What a Capricorn Dislikes
Flightiness, Being bossed around, Crudeness/coarseness, Dominance, Game playing, Ego displays, Extravagance Being challenged by a lover, Indecisiveness

Capricorn Love Keywords
Loyal, ambitious, dedicated, focused, honesty, disciplined, severe, possessive, controlling, cold, calculating

Sharing some thoughts about the big "L"

Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry"; not "where are you' but "I'm right here"; not "how could you" but "I understand"; not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are."

ENGAGED
The True measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.

NOT-SO-SINGLE
Those who have "special someone" .... Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble; be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go.

SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but oftentimes it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to whom it's worth. So take your time and choose the best. : )

With This Day

They say take a chance
Live life on the edge
Never look back
Look forward instead

Don't worry, be happy
To thine own self be true
Live life to the fullest
Do what you must do

Live in the present
Let go of the past
Give it all you've got
Make the good times last

Stop and smell the roses
Give each person a smile
'Tis the first day of your life
So make it worthwhile

Yet, some of us hear this

Today's just a present
That's been given to you

It can be gone in an instant
It could be taken away
So, take good care not to miss out
On what you could do with this day.

~Elizabeth Parillo~

Argh... blardy wallpaper... I'll go find something else... but for now... that'll have to do.

No Subject

分手

思念你。。和我一起渡过的岁月
惦记你。。和我曾经有过的那段恋情
好辛苦/孤独。。你到底在哪里
求求你。。别让我这样下去

什么山盟海誓，什么致死不渝
每当想起你，狂热的泪水就洒不停

别再说。。你不再爱我
别放开。。这一段甜蜜恋情
为什么。。你要这样狠心
没了你。。我该往哪里去

每当我一个人的时候，我总会想起你
如果时间能回头，我一定坚持不渝

好可惜。。也许这就是命运
再回头。。到底可不可以
算了吧。。如果是这样的结局
感谢你。。给我这段美好回忆

 

I am as I am

Je suis comme je suis

Je suis comme je suis
Je suis faite comme ça
Quand j'ai envie de rire
Oui je ris aux éclats
J'aime celui qui m'aime
Est-ce ma faute à moi
Si ce n'est pas le même
Que j'aime chaque fois
Je suis comme je suis
Je suis faite comme ça
Que voulez-vous de plus
Que voulez-vous de moi

Je suis faite pour plaire
Et n'y puis rien changer
Mes talons sont trop hauts
Ma taille trop cambrée
Mes seins beaucoup trop durs
Et mes yeux trop cernés
Et puis après
Qu'est-ce que ça peut vous faire
Je suis comme je suis
Je plais à qui je plais
Qu'est-ce que ça peut vous faire
Ce qui m'est arrivé
Oui j'ai aimé quelqu'un
Oui quelqu'un m'a aimée
Comme les enfants qui s'aiment
Simplement savent aimer
Aimer aimer...
Pourquoi me questionner
Je suis là pour vous plaire
Et n'y puis rien changer

Jaques Prévert


A direct translation:
 
I am as I am
I am made like that
When I want to laugh 
I laugh hard 
I love somebody who loves me
This shouldn't be my fault 
If it is not the same one
That I love each time
I am as I am
I am made like that
What more do you want
What do you expect from me 

I am made to love
And there's nothing to change there
My heels are too high
My too cambered size
My chest much too hard
And my too encircled eyes
And then afterwards
What that can make you
I am as I am
I love who I like
What that can make you
What arrived to me
Yes I loved somebody
Yes somebody loved me
As like children who love each other
Simply knows how to love
To love to love ...
Why question me 
Here I am to please you 
But there's nothing to change 

Guess it simply means to live life the way you are, you want. I am as I am; when I like you, I like you. Do not question me or change me. Pretty much my way of living :)

What's Love..?

爱究竟是什么？
爱就是生命。
我之所以能理解这一切
是因为我爱过，
所以才能体会。。。
一切都是因为爱而结合在一起
一切都是因为我有爱，
所以存在。

 
- 无名氏

Talent vs Hardwork

Just visited one of my fren's blog, and am I shocked.. it was done up so nicely, very much like the "creative" person that she is. Envious I may be but it leaves me wondering.. How many people we know are really talented since young? Or is it because they put in so much hardwork thus they'll succeed?

I used to think that I'm rather gifted; since young I didn't really have to study much to get good results. But that mentality costs me my life.. so much has changed when things could have been different. My secondary sch grades were really horrible but somehow I still managed to scrape through to Poly.. and from then on, everything simply went down the hill. So here I am, armed with only an O level cert and some crappy half past six certs from online "courses" which aren't recognised by any institution.

So what went wrong? Is it because I was too complacent? Is it because I was just unlucky? Or is it because I'm really not cut out to be the studious kind? Some people don't make it in their studies, but they succeed in life later on. So far, I didn't have this kind of luck, am stuck in a mud pit where everything is crap. When will I make it?

I think I've got a serious self-discipline problem, I'm not focus enough to do anything. I'm actually thinking of starting my own company to do some freelance IT maintenance but do I really have a need to start one? *think think think* What other things can I do? Something niche? Or something totally irrelevant to what I'm doing now? I hope this serves as a reminder that I must come up with something fast.. if not, a few weeks/months down the road and I'll completely forget about it.
 
 
now, a song dedicated to you... 
  
  
For Once In My Life 
 
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once unafraid
I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong
 
For once I can touch
What my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Could make my dreams come true
 
For once in my life
I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before
For once I have someone I know won't desert me
I'm not alone anymore
 
For once I can say, "This is mine you can't take it"
As long as I know I've got love
I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me
 
 

Specially dedicated to Jun Ji Hyun

Isn't she such a dear? So versatile.. be it goofy, sweet, spunky, sexy.. YOU SIMPLY ROCK!!




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To those who believe in true love ...... WindStruck

"If only I can feel you ... Even as the wind"



A test pic.. but isn't she pretty?

This is a screenshot taken from the movie, WindStruck. Apparantly the story line has a sort of twist (typical korean screenwriters) and its not really a comedy like My Sassy Girl. But exactly what twist? I don't know.. I wanna get the dvd if possible, no time/ no company to go catch the movie with.

When She Loved Me - Sarah McLachlan

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart.
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was I, when she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and I together, like it was meant to be.
And when she was lonely, I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by, I stayed the same
And she began to drift away, I was left alone
Still I waited for the day, when she'd say,"I will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she'd look my way
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do
Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful.
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me...



There's no other song which could express what my heart is feeling right now..
I wished it can be changed to "When She Loves Me" ..

Quiz of the Day - 7th July 2004

Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla


Ooooh... I'm brad pitt!! eh wait... sheesh... I think I'm more of a brat + pig ;(


For those who've got poor eyesight and can't read the words in the pic, this is what it said:


You belong in the movie, FIGHT CLUB.
Rules? What are those? You create your own rules. You are good at influencing people who are just as broken as you are. You hide your insecurities with mean words and toughness. There will be others like you out there. It's a world where everyone hates each other.

That Special Someone

Everyone (or at least me and my friends) would like to find their special SOMEONE .. someday. Is it really that hard? Or are we over-picky?

I've never really had a girlfriend since the day I was borned. My reason for not having one is because I'm looking for that special person in my life. To have and to hold, to settle down and grow old. Now it seems, it's somewhat impossible..

Friends who are nice will say that I'm being romantic, but others will just say that I have too high a standard to begin with. But is it really so? When I look at someone, I admit I'll scrutinised them and sometimes comment on them. And that shouldn't be confused with my expectations in my future partner. Cos I asked for the very minimum if people were to ask me what do I look for in a girlfriend.. appearance: so long as she looks pleasant to me, build: slim, character: independent. Too much? Or too little?

Back to the topic... how do we know if the person you're dating/ going to date is the special someone in your life? Truth is, no one knows for sure. He/she may have set your heart ablaze.. or your adrenaline pumping .. but that's only the chemistry part. What about the physical and the psychological part? I think we can use an equation like this:

Special Someone = Chemistry x Physical x Psychological(EQ & IQ)

Reason being: when we first meet someone, we're attracted physically (appearance) and then comes chemistry. When the physical part die down, the psychological part will then take over. That's what many of the married couples are facing nowadays, they can't switch from the physical part to the psychological side and everything starts to crumble once they're into 5-10 years of their marriage or some even later.

So you see, having sex without love is purely physical. Making love satisfy not only the physical part, but also the psychologically as well. (to be continued....)

Being Twenty Something..

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis". It is
when you stop going along with the crowd and
start realising that there are many things about
yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.


You start realising that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were so close to aren't exactly the greatest
people you have ever met, and the people you have
lost touch with are some of the most important
ones. What you don't recognise is that they are
realising that too, and aren't really cold,
catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as
confused as you.


You look at your job...and it is not even close
to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe
you are looking for a job and realising that you
are going to have to start at the bottom and that
scares you. Would you dare to take the risk?


Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more
than usual because suddenly you realise that you
have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and what isn't.


One minute, you are insecure and then the next,
you're not. You laugh and cry with the greatest force
of your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you
try and cling on to the past with dear life, but
soon realise that the past is drifting further
and further away, and there is nothing to do but
stay where you are or move forward.


You get your heart broken and wonder how someone
you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay
in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know better.
High expectations? Certainly not...


Or maybe you love someone but love someone else
too and cannot figure out why you are doing this
because you know that you aren't a bad person.


One nightstands and random hook ups start to look
cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot
starts to look pathetic. You go through the same
emotions and questions over and over, and talk
with your friends about the same topics because
you cannot seem to make a decision.


You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself...and while winning
the race would be great, right now you'd just
like to be a contender!


What you may not realise is that everyone reading
this relates to it. We are in our best of times and
our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to
figure this whole thing out.

Test of the day

You are Cigarettes. Easy to get, nasty to smoke,
addictive as hell and you kill 400,000 people a
year. Congratulations.


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For Once In My Life

This sucks... I think I'm really down on my luck? Or is it simply I'm not making enough effort? My job sucks, my job hunt sucks, my life sucks!

Went for my only job interview last thursday and what happened? I screw up... yes.. totally screwed.
I wasn't the least bit prepared and when the interviewer asked me questions.. I simply act as though I know but couldn't recall and then after giving it some "thoughts", I just told him that I don't know. How great~ ;(
Though he mentioned that he's only helping the manager to assess the candidates' standard and will not be a deciding factor, I really don't think my chances are high at all.. bye to my 2nd interview!!

My mood has been very unstable these days.. don't know why. I flare up at the smallest of things and get easily irritated. Have no mood to work, feel like sleeping at home everyday.. doing nothing.. this is bad. Wonder if anyone has a solution or a miracle cure? Actually I know there is, just give me more money and flexible working hours.. too much to ask for?

be back later...


Currently listening to: Noon - Better than anything (a very nice jazz album)

Love

How do you measure love?


Do you measure it by the size of the hole it leaves behind after its gone? or simply by the number of "I Love You"s spoken?

No Subject

Continuation...
Went through some of the testimonials I wrote for a few friends on Friendster... I realised we really don't really meant what we say... it sounds so fake ...

"You're definitely a friend I want to keep for life", "I luv you ...but I know that you'll be always here (or try to be here)" ... in real life, it never happens. Everything was written in a spur of the moment. And when we do meet up, there's really very limited things that we can talk about... gone were the days in the past... so what's next?

I've did some soul-searching and I found that I've really taken up the role of a true friend quite well (not bragging), I'm always there when any of you need me. Is it because I'm single? Or is it because I'm too free? It's simply taking some initiatives to make things work. Friendship is just another form of relationship with one another, if you want to strengthen it, if you want it to work out, then please take some form of initiative yah?

Talking about which, I actually forgot my darling V's birthday. Normally I would have remembered it cos I stored everything in my phone's calendar but eversince I changed to this new phone, I'm so lost... (yeah it's just another excuse) but we really depend too much on our phone nowadays don't we? :P

K now, I better go and set alarm to remind myself to call V tomorrow ... and doublecheck her address. Am thinking of sending her some flowers/card . Goodnite!

What a true friend means?

Often we've heard "Oh you're such a true friend.." or "I only have a few true friends while the rest are just aquaintance"... but really, what's the real definition of a "true friend"?

Does being a true friend mean that he/she will stand by your side whenever you need them? Or does it mean that by picking you up when you're down qualify someone as your true friend?

We're often so caught up with our own work/relationships that we sometimes fail to see who is really true to us. Sometimes, they just happened to be at the right place, at the right time to temporarily fit into the category of being a true friend. I, for one, doesn't seem to have true friends. For most of the time, it's mainly one sided... when they needed me most, I'll be there to provide for them. But when I need them most, there's none in sight to care for me. I guess it's just life...

Recently this topic struck me when I really needed someone to go out with, to talk to. I'm so enclosed in my own little world and once my so-called true friends aren't available for me, I become a poor, lonely soul... waiting desperately for them to call... trying hard to beat boredom. Maybe I'm just being selfish, or maybe I just got too little friends.. all I know is that they mean alot more to me than they think. I guess I'll have to just plant my feet on the ground and accept the fact that no true friend will be there for you 24/7. You'll just have to face the cold, harsh world by yourself if they are not available..

Now... time for me to widen my social circle... :(

Too lost in you ... how apt

For that special someone:

You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In this state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep,
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)

Well you whispered in me
and i shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind

Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep,
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)

I'm going in crazy in love for you baby (I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me (No one can rescue me)

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby

Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep,
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)

Horoscope..

Although I've always been a faithful follower ... this stuff really reinstate all my beliefs ;p


SCORPIO MAN


A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is
sensitive and easily hurt and
always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone
but himself. Sounding so
negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He
is a compassionate man . He
absorbs other people sentimental feeling and
pain.

He is a good psychiatrist and he could
understand complex and confused
feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use
it to make things happen
and do things well. He does not like people who
never try to help themselves
before asking other people for favors. He is the
type of guy who mostly
achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind
for something, he will put
all his energy and efforts in it , whether or
not it is a small matter or a
big project. One of the most success man in all
the Zodiac.

He is a very patient man and can waits for years
to reach his goal. He hates
thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not
retreat or rest for long,
for he thinks life has more questions and more
answer to be searched.

If he is in love, you will get plenty of love
from him, sometimes may be too
much than you have asked for. He is serious
about love and relationship and
will not waste time with someone he does not
love whether how pretty she is.

He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you
have any bad thought, and will
not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like
straight forward sincere
man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over
sensitive person, try not to
ask for his comments. He will tell you the
truth, even you might not be able
to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are
fat (and you are fat), he
will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes
such comments because he cares
for you, so do something about your weight and
do not get up set with him.

If he says "you look pretty today", you can be
proud because he will not say
such think just to please you if he does not
really mean it. There will be
both kind of people, those who like him and
those who hate him. If you are
in love this guy, be strong and belief in your
decision, do not be
vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will
wait for his pay back time.

He is very serious about your promise, do not
promise something you could
not keep. He loves his friends and will do
anything for his close friends.
He likes you to take care of him, but not in
front of his friend. He is a
complex man and you will never understand what
he means if you do not really
know him. He is happy to know he is a complex
figure. When he is thinking or
when he needs his privacy, you should give him
some space.

He memorize everything well. You may say
something that you already
forgotten, but he will remember every words. He
wants to be respected and
admired and at the same time he does not like
people to have power over him.

When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A
man in this Zodiac once in
love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not
like a plain and simple
woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture.
Always be interesting and able
to talk to him about every things in any
subjects. He does not like a woman
who sits around waiting for his call.

Happy New Year 2004!!!

Well ,its the beginning of a brand new year and seriously the last year was as fucked up as it can get (for me that is)

A sms from my darling V, "May the fleas of a thousand camels infest the ass of the person who fucks up your year and may his arms grow too short to scratch his ass! HAPPY NEW YEAR!" LOL that was the best I've heard for quite a while.. and crude as it may sound, it actually means well =) Thanks darl

The last week was plagued with bad luck n suay-ness... firstly, for nothing I was blamed for not knowing what the client needs when it wasn't even me who had the meeting with them. If you are stressed, don't take it out on other people.. wtf, what goes around, comes around and may you be the first to have fleas up ur ASS cos you fuckup my year . Then on NYE you want to have some shit meeting, when everyone else (including statutory boards) is working half-day. I stormed off at 2pm and for that you want to deduct half day leave from me? Go ahead, as if I give a fuck about it. We'll just wait and see, i'll show you what a scorpio can do when they're pissed.

Shall not ruin the 1st day of a brand new year. Hope that I can find a job soon and fuck off from that place, my new year resolutions:

1. Thou shalt not procrastinate
2. Thou shalt be more disciplined

[Please, please stick to it?] Hope it'll stick to me like a post-it pad thru out the year.. once again, Happy New Year!!


Peace,

Hobbit Personality Test

You are most like
Aragorn (Stryder) Son of Arathorn

Aragorn's decisions often seem against conventional wisdom, but he knows what to do and why it must be done, regardless of the cost.
You are good at making contingency plans and come up wiith efficient means to acheive clear-cut ends. You are highly independent, and continue on with your plans even in the face of data that might suggest to others that it's no longer feasible. Time alone is important and solitary activities refresh you. You have a tendency to introspection. In your desire for clarity in life, you may have the tendency of being remote or even "heartless". You try to schedule your life as much as possible. You tend to finish your work before resting.

As the foil to Aragorn, Sauron clearly embodies the evil side of this personality.

Traits: Pragmatic, autonomous, ingenious, resolute. On the dark side you could desire power and domination.


http://www.hobbitlore.com/personality/index.php

Hmm... so true

http://haleonline.com/psychtest/
You're an INTP

INTP
You're on a quest for logical purity...you're motivated to examine universal truths and principles...always asking "Why?" and "Why not?"...can focus with great intensity on your interests...you appreciate elegance and efficiency in thought processes and demand it in your communication...

You might appear low key in appearance and approach, you're hard as nails when challenging a truth...you don't like to deal with the obvious...at your best when developing unusual or complex ideas...you can be an under- achieving but very capable student...if you don't like a rule, you're quick to challenge it and find flaws in it -- this could make you somewhat of a rebel...if you like the rule, though, you have a respect for it and go along with it...

A relentless learner in areas that hold your interest...you might seem "lost in thought" to others...you tend to connect unrelated thoughts...you would rather be the architect of a plan than the implementer of it...you need a private, quiet workplace that allows for flexible independence... would rather organize ideas than people....

You tend to stay away from traditional leadership roles, and would rather lead with your ideas...you don't get emotionally involved, but rather tend to follow logical reasoning.....leisure has two dimensions to you: first, you like to concentrate and reflect on conceptual matters -- second, you like to take risks in the external world (like skydiving?)...

You like to read, think, watch TV, play with computers..(and post on the Storm Palace message bases).. sometimes you'd rather do these types of things than hang around other people...you don't necessarily like "best sellers" or "must see" movies because you don't trust people's opinion on what's "popular" and would rather make a value judgment for yourself....

Love, for you, has three distinct phases: falling in, staying in, and getting out. falling in love is a loss of rationality for you, and you fall HARD...an all or nothing phenomenon....

The "staying in love" phase is where you start to evaluate the relation- ship's structure and form. You may withdraw at this point because you're moving toward your most customary inward style and nature. A lot of the open affection stops....the giddy state changes... The "falling out of love" part (which doesn't always happen) results from an analysis of the real expectations of the realationship and needs of the relationship. Often an undefined line is crossed that neither of you knew about in advance. However, if you end it, you'll keep the relationship going as a friend in some capacity if you have a reason....

Pitfalls: don't focus too much on the inconsistencies of others...try being friendly and showing appreciation of others...being competent is very important to you, and you could be too hard on yourself....don't let your emotions take control -- you could have outbursts or appear hypersensitive...

INTP: "It's Not Theoretically Possible"

Memories

Memories (n. pl. mem·o·ries) - The mental faculty of retaining and recalling past experience

Yesterday night was spent at East Coast Park, recollecting all my memories of the past years.
From macs, I walked all the way to my fav breakwater near PA (after Bedok Jetty). Basically I went past the bbq pit where I had my first #icehockey bbq near the tennis courts. That was also the first time I brought Jo along to meet the rest and she was so out of place so we walked further down and sat along a stone bench to talk n stuff... after that I walked her over to mandarin gardens, took a cab n sent her back and then I went back to ECP. Still remember how I had a crush on her then.. =)

Then past the food centre.. its under renovations/ upgrading till who knows when.. had alot of memories there too.. always had lunch there after poly and then find some place to smoke. But the most fond memory of the food centre was having dinner with Lauren n Kai. The first time I actually went out with her alone.. after going to NP to meet her, took a bus down to Orchard, had lunch at BK (Orchard Emerald) and then took another bus to mandarin gardens. After dinner, we proceeded down to the breakwater after Bedok Jetty, sat there n listen to the waves crashing against the breakwater.. how serene, how soothing..

A bit further down, I sat at the exact spot when I was with Emily 2 yrs back, she was going thru a transitional period after her breakup with KY... I guess I was partly responsible for all the tears that flow out of her eyes and how much she suffered. Probably that's why I tried so hard to make it up to her, keeping her company, as and when she needs. I'm glad she's ok now.. although we only meet up once a year.. during my birthdays.. I shall make an effort to ask her out more often from now.

It's funny how I only managed to sit down at that spot for less than 5 mins. I was supposed to find solace near the breakwater.. I always did.. cept for yesterday. So I just carried on walking... felt abit like Forrest Gump.. when he ran across the whole of America to try to clear his mind, n finding a purpose in life after Jenny... I don't know what was on my mind though.. only felt that it's in a mess, so foggy that I don't even know what's inside. And so I ended up at Bedok South.. outside Bedok Court where I hailed a taxi n went back home. My feet felt sore n slightly blistered after the short rest in the taxi.. weird huh? Cos during the hour plus or so of walking, not once did I feel the soreness

Guess thats the end of my walk in the night yesterday.. will try to go down more often if possible. I don't get lost in memories.. I simply survive on memories.. they keep me alive and push me on with my life.. now thats good isn't it? =)

Tired....

Wonder how come I'm so easily tired lately.. just dun have the urge to go work anymore.. talk about job satisfaction ;p

Anyways, took MC today because I've been werking so hard lately (yar rite) and I've been having blocked nose n cough since monday but didn't go to see the doc then because my colleague was on leave and I have to cover his duties, and since now that he's back, I can safely go take MC and rest at home..

Went to tampines central with wendy in the afternoon.. been such a long time since we last meet up. Quite surprised to see that she still got the mashimaro seatbelt cover i got her in 2001. *so touched* basically just walked around tampines mall, then had coffee at CS and then shopped for some groceries at NTUC.. kinda bored but that's what I'm feeling now.. can't perk myself up to do anything or to even appear energetic. Suxx? yeah i think so too.. now.. what should I do tomorrow after work leh?? I would love to catch Matrix Revolutions but can't seem to find anyone to watch with me. Maybe I'll just join amee and peifen but I realised there'll be silence because of no common topic between us...kinda awkward (so you better think twice and don't ruin ppl's meeting) .. then what can I do? where are all my frens when I NEED them?

Think its time to get myself a companion/ gf/ buddy/ fuckmate or watever you call em. =)