Who are you looking for
What is it that you want
This heavy heart of mine
Keeps on searching for The One
The one & only Missus
The one goal in life
The one reason to live
The one opportunity to rise
Thru the many years
It has stayed so still
Just like a sleeping volcano
Waiting to erupt
Unable to express myself
Unable to realise
Unable to convince myself
And this heavy heart of mine
Just what's so hard to express
What's there to realise
To convince or to contradict
The truth or the lie
No good without evil
No peace without war
No shadow without light
No absolute right or wrong
A trial, a test, or simply a twist of fate
All that's waiting
Is this long, lonely road to take
A random rant.. going through my warped mind.. don't know what I'm writing anyway.. but at least it rhymes.. somehow. Hmm this is soooo not good.
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Been feeling very very very very moody these few days...
Why? I hate my current job, I took it up just to finance myself for an occasion. Now that its over, I really don't feel like doing this anymore.
Some reasons of mine:
- its boring
- everyday i do work without using my brains
- its damn boring
- there's no motivation
- its fucking boring
- i feel dejected
I've done abit of soul searching or watever u call it. And I realised that I don't ask for alot.. I just want a proper job.. something which will keep my brains working.. something which earns me some decent money and probably thats it. Been looking around for jobs ... but not much luck. Been talking to a few ppl about working sales jobs.. not much luck either.. mostly its because of self-discipline. They say that if you wanna work in sales.. you gotto have discipline.. so that you can drive/motivate yourself etc.
Seriously, if I have that.. I wouldn't be whining here would i? And all these mood swings certainly aint helping much either, its like back to the "good" ol' days.. when I need someone to talk to, I can't find anyone. Fuck it.. I'll managed somehow... I hope.
Now if you're reading this and u think u have an advice for me, please let me know.
Why? I hate my current job, I took it up just to finance myself for an occasion. Now that its over, I really don't feel like doing this anymore.
Some reasons of mine:
- its boring
- everyday i do work without using my brains
- its damn boring
- there's no motivation
- its fucking boring
- i feel dejected
I've done abit of soul searching or watever u call it. And I realised that I don't ask for alot.. I just want a proper job.. something which will keep my brains working.. something which earns me some decent money and probably thats it. Been looking around for jobs ... but not much luck. Been talking to a few ppl about working sales jobs.. not much luck either.. mostly its because of self-discipline. They say that if you wanna work in sales.. you gotto have discipline.. so that you can drive/motivate yourself etc.
Seriously, if I have that.. I wouldn't be whining here would i? And all these mood swings certainly aint helping much either, its like back to the "good" ol' days.. when I need someone to talk to, I can't find anyone. Fuck it.. I'll managed somehow... I hope.
Now if you're reading this and u think u have an advice for me, please let me know.
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