Memories

Memories (n. pl. mem·o·ries) - The mental faculty of retaining and recalling past experience

Yesterday night was spent at East Coast Park, recollecting all my memories of the past years.
From macs, I walked all the way to my fav breakwater near PA (after Bedok Jetty). Basically I went past the bbq pit where I had my first #icehockey bbq near the tennis courts. That was also the first time I brought Jo along to meet the rest and she was so out of place so we walked further down and sat along a stone bench to talk n stuff... after that I walked her over to mandarin gardens, took a cab n sent her back and then I went back to ECP. Still remember how I had a crush on her then.. =)

Then past the food centre.. its under renovations/ upgrading till who knows when.. had alot of memories there too.. always had lunch there after poly and then find some place to smoke. But the most fond memory of the food centre was having dinner with Lauren n Kai. The first time I actually went out with her alone.. after going to NP to meet her, took a bus down to Orchard, had lunch at BK (Orchard Emerald) and then took another bus to mandarin gardens. After dinner, we proceeded down to the breakwater after Bedok Jetty, sat there n listen to the waves crashing against the breakwater.. how serene, how soothing..

A bit further down, I sat at the exact spot when I was with Emily 2 yrs back, she was going thru a transitional period after her breakup with KY... I guess I was partly responsible for all the tears that flow out of her eyes and how much she suffered. Probably that's why I tried so hard to make it up to her, keeping her company, as and when she needs. I'm glad she's ok now.. although we only meet up once a year.. during my birthdays.. I shall make an effort to ask her out more often from now.

It's funny how I only managed to sit down at that spot for less than 5 mins. I was supposed to find solace near the breakwater.. I always did.. cept for yesterday. So I just carried on walking... felt abit like Forrest Gump.. when he ran across the whole of America to try to clear his mind, n finding a purpose in life after Jenny... I don't know what was on my mind though.. only felt that it's in a mess, so foggy that I don't even know what's inside. And so I ended up at Bedok South.. outside Bedok Court where I hailed a taxi n went back home. My feet felt sore n slightly blistered after the short rest in the taxi.. weird huh? Cos during the hour plus or so of walking, not once did I feel the soreness

Guess thats the end of my walk in the night yesterday.. will try to go down more often if possible. I don't get lost in memories.. I simply survive on memories.. they keep me alive and push me on with my life.. now thats good isn't it? =)

Tired....

Wonder how come I'm so easily tired lately.. just dun have the urge to go work anymore.. talk about job satisfaction ;p

Anyways, took MC today because I've been werking so hard lately (yar rite) and I've been having blocked nose n cough since monday but didn't go to see the doc then because my colleague was on leave and I have to cover his duties, and since now that he's back, I can safely go take MC and rest at home..

Went to tampines central with wendy in the afternoon.. been such a long time since we last meet up. Quite surprised to see that she still got the mashimaro seatbelt cover i got her in 2001. *so touched* basically just walked around tampines mall, then had coffee at CS and then shopped for some groceries at NTUC.. kinda bored but that's what I'm feeling now.. can't perk myself up to do anything or to even appear energetic. Suxx? yeah i think so too.. now.. what should I do tomorrow after work leh?? I would love to catch Matrix Revolutions but can't seem to find anyone to watch with me. Maybe I'll just join amee and peifen but I realised there'll be silence because of no common topic between us...kinda awkward (so you better think twice and don't ruin ppl's meeting) .. then what can I do? where are all my frens when I NEED them?

Think its time to get myself a companion/ gf/ buddy/ fuckmate or watever you call em. =)