Just wanna dedicate 2 songs to you.. "Honey" and "Waiting For"... check out the lyrics if you can.. hope it'll perk you up (at least by a bit).. Don't waste your time waiting, esp if its too painful to hold on.

*Imagine yourself hanging by the edge of a tall building.. probably around the 3rd level. You can (1) try to hang on but it's nearly impossible for you to climb up to the top or (2) you can just let go and fall to the bottom; No matter which choice you decide, the most likely result would be you falling down. Choose (1), you'll eventually grow tired and can't hang on. Choose (2), you waste lesser time, let go, fall down and get hospitalised. And the earlier you will be able to move on.*

"Life is simply a matter of choice. You just gotto make yours and stick/live with it." - Setzer